Coming across videos through social media then moving to YouTube I saw many signs, basically all of them, telling me I most likely have ADHD. Now I’m not one to diagnose myself through those forms of media so I went to a psychologist and was diagnosed summer of 2021 with ADHD. At first it was some what relieving knowing who I was from a child to adulthood and all the “flaws” I saw in myself as well of having friends and family point out was not for the famous stigmas of being lazy, never remembering things telling them I don’t care or listen, it’s not that hard just do it, and my personal favorite of not caring about anything because I have no emotions. I have masked who I am and because I went 31 years not diagnosed I’ve locked up my emotions because I never knew how to handle them and still don’t to this day. As I am learning more about it I’ve learned ways to get away from what I have done trying to “fix” what I know now isn’t fixable but something to learn to live with. This past week with all bottled up emotions and feeling alone with knowing understand how hard everyday is with ADHD is because they think it’s only hyper and not being able to focus or pay attention and that’s it, has brought me to my breaking point and being burnt out emotionally and mentally. It has effected my personal life, my work life and my marriage to the point I strongly believe my diagnoses was little too late to help my marriage. I can’t focus on anything and I can’t sleep with nothing but past negative events racing through my head day and night. I’m tapped out and as I threw in the towel I learned my cousin has had it this whole time and I didn’t know and has been helping me through it. Through her help and YouTube videos I found it’s amazing what talking to someone who not understands because they’ve read and learned about ADHD but because they have it themselves. This is my first post in the forum and to be honest and straight to the point, what’s helping me is hearing the stories that I can relate to and knowing I’m not alone at the point I am at and know there’s a light at the end of the tunnel.
So I’m here to ask for guidance and just to talk about ADHD and what everyone’s experiences with it.