I’m an okay driver. I basically assume everyone else is actively trying to kill me and have pretty good reflexes. I’m great at slamming on my breaks. I don’t understand why everyone else can’t do this when I make a mistake, because I do it all the time to avoid all of the brilliant commuters I come in contact with.
I have driven the wrong way on a boulevard, briefly before turning into a gas station and correcting my error and other stupid things like that. I mean well, I just missed something or got confused. But one the other side of things: I get lost and forgot which way to turn and which street I’m on. Only when I’m driving on an extremely familiar route does my impatience/ADHD come out, then sometimes I become that person that changes lanes too much.
My last wreck (a year ago) happened because a giant truck put on its hazards and started slowing down in front of me, during rush hour. I freaked out, got distracted, and tried to change lanes before I got stuck behind him, so I skimmed against another car in the next lane. I thought something was malfunctioning with the 18 wheeler because hazards, but apparently the driver thought stopping for a delivery in the right lane on a 6 lane road where everyone is going 47-50 mph is a good idea. Just turn into the damn apartment complex entry area, don’t freak me out into thinking the giant truck in front of me is faulty… but I digress. ( I blame the truck driver, even if my insurance doesn’t. I know it’s my fault, but how I am not supposed to have that split second reaction.)
Normally, I’m hyper vigilant about checking before I change lanes. Now when I get stuck behind a bus stopping, I just wait, even though it sucks, because I don’t want to pay $1000 for my car again. I’ve been listening to an awesome audiobook I love and now I don’t mind when I miss the light, because someone is being stupid, because I’m listening to awesomeness.
I try to learn from my wrecks (2). Lesson #1 don’t panic when you get lost in your home town at midnight. Breathe and keep checking to see what color the stoplight is. Lesson #2 always check your blind spot, even when you’re trying to change lanes quickly. Just get stuck behind things and wait if you can’t change lanes
On the plus side: I’ve never been pulled over. I’m too afraid of getting pulled over to really speed or break traffic laws on purpose.
So all in all I’m okayish. I can’t stand driving to new places. And hopefully I’ll get better, I’ve only been driving for 9 years and only driven regularly for 2-3 years. Music relaxes me, making me drive better ( less anxiety) and audiobooks give me something to think about, so that’s how I fix my driving. Along with GPS and getting other people to go with me places. When I drive with others in my car, I’m a way better driver.