I’m so frustrated. After making so much progress of not picking my skin so much. I go back to doing it. Then I pick up the strategy that was most successful again (giving my friend cash every time I pick) but today I was so stressed I picked my face like crazy for who knows how long in front of the mirror. And that failure makes me so frustrated and angry!
The therapy I’m getting doesn’t feel like it’s working because I’m trying to stop doing a very specific stimuli that can’t exactly be replicated for a healthier substitute which is instantly rewarding (the satisfaction of squeezing/scratching “something out” of pimples, blackheads or any unevenness on my skin) that I can do literally whenever I want (even without a mirror) because I will always have skin wherever I go!
Those 3 factors (Specific, Instantly Rewarding, Always Accessible) is exactly why it’s so hard to get rid of this bad habit of mine as someone with ADHD! Poor impulse control is already hard enough as it is! But this is the first time I have to stop doing something ENTIRELY!
All the other times I manage to successfully control my impulse is for things I still get to do in my life! Like yeah! I can pretty easily NOT play video games or buy snacks/junkfood whenever I want despite wanting to really really really badly! But I don’t quit playing video games or eating snacks/junkfood for the rest of my life!
So what is a brain like me supposed to do?