Hey everyone. I’ve been overthink again. And now I’m wondering if I might have a mild form of ocd
So, is there anyone here living with ADHD and OCD? If so, how do you keep the two apart from each other? What gets effected by what? How does OCD work on you?
I myself have 2/3 things that make me think that I might have OCD:
- I am OBSESSIVE over organizing things. When I fold clothes, they have to be straight. I have hundreds of markers and stationery supplies. They’re all sorted in specific ways and all that. I’m obsessed with those things. If things don’t go my way with cleaning and organizing I freak out.
2: obsessive thoughts. I’m not sure if it’s a hyperfocus or obsessive thought thing. This whole subject is the best example. I keep wanting to talk with people about ADHD and being highly sensitive. And it sucks because obviously it gets annoying at one point. I am just overly obsessed with talking about it. And I have no idea why and there seems to be no way to stop it. I hate this about myself.
- Weird thoughts about horrifying scenarios. If I sit in a bus I sometimes start thinking about what if the bus would be a part of an accident? What would I do? Etc. Even worse is when I see a train and I would love to jump in front of it. I don’t want to kill myself. I simply wanna knownhow it feels when a train hits you with that speed. I just need to know it. Same with things like falling off a building or cutting myself. These thoughts are really weird. Sometimes I really have to hold myself in when I think about those things. I could jump in front of a train just like that. And I know I won’t survive it. But still I just need to know how it feels.
Another thing. I have an allergic reaction to a specific caterpillar with these hairs on it right now. I keep obsessing over that allergic reaction. There’s no reason to obsess over it, yet I am. It’s so weird. I want to get rid of that but I can’t.
If there’s something in my head, it needs to be worked out. I’m so obsessive over many things like that. And even when they’re finished, I’ll move on to a new one. I have no idea if this is hyperfocussing or OCD.
What do you guys experience with your ocd? I’d love to know. Maybe I should talk to a therapist again about these things. They seem to start spiraling out of control so much that it starts stressing me out.