I’m brand new and actually just trying to work out whether I might have ADD/ADHD in the first place. It would explain a lot of things that have been going on with me for, well, my whole life. Like my inability to sleep, or just do one thing at a time, the way my brain obsesses over things whether I want to think about them or not, and my 3,000 half-learned hobbies!!!
But what I want to ask about is unclear thinking. It’s something I’ve struggled with for a VERY long time and it’s just becoming unmanageable now. I forget things almost the instant I’ve learned about them. I have a Filofax and I write things in my phone calendar but still miss appointments and forget important dates. I have a little radio show at a local hospital and booked a guest interview on it for next week. Except somehow, and I still don’t get how, I got REALLY confused and just two days after making the arrangements, was CONVINCED it was yesterday!! I put out all the advertising for it, then panicked when the guy didn’t show up. In the end, I looked back through the messages, saw it was for next week and it all came flooding back, but I look like a total idiot now for chasing him while he’s ON HOLIDAY.
This is just so typical of me and nothing I do seems to change anything. I always end up looking like a twonk in front of people I need to look professional in front of. Right now I’m just in retail so it’s not the end of the world but I’m looking for a new job and I really worry about how I’ll manage. If they give me a load of tasks to do, I’m going to struggle to organise myself. I lose track of time very easily, and if I feel like something is overwhelmingly important, I become the Queen of Procrastination. And while people are giving me instructions, my brain likes to take little holidays as well, so I often lose bits of information I really need.
I just don’t know if I can face going to the doctor about this. I’m worried they’re going to think I’m a hypochondriac or that I’m just a bit useless (certainly what I think most of the time). So what can I do to help myself get out of the fog and think clearly for a change? What can I do to help myself remember things and focus? How can I get through the fog enough to come up with some good ideas?
Any help would be awesome. Thanks.