I’m trying to be chill and just enjoy getting to know someone, having conversations, developing a friendship, spending time with them. But I do not have much chill and my emotions start running high and I get really attached to the person and hyperfocused on them and I just want to spend time alone with them and find out if they want to kiss me like I want to kiss them and HUGE SIGH. I mean, it’s fun to be smitten with someone, but there’s also a lot of craziness when you have difficulty regulating your emotions and attention.
Even harder when you work with them and you don’t want to make your work environment weird or misinterpret a co-worker just being friendly.
Anyway, I’m thankful I have a safe place to vent about this where other people might have the same problem.