Sooooooo lemme just start off immediately.
I’m not (yet) diagnosed with ADHD. I hope there Will come a test. I am highly sensitive though. Not just a bit. Really badly highly sensitive. And I think I might have caught up a light form of depression. I once had it when I was around 10 to 12. Then I reciterend from it by myself. Afterwards almost a year ago now I got into this mental breakdown. A terrible mental breakdown. Afterwards I got back to work too fast. Now I fell back. But this time I think it’s more of a depression then a mental breakdown. I feel miserable.
I do happen to have this obsession with mental things like ADHD, autism, depression etc. So it’s Hard for me not to talk about it. There’s this other forum website that I’m on (it’s Dutch). And I created a topic for people who have to deal with mental health issues and stuff like that. Now I get bashed for selfdiagnosing all the time. But that’s not the case. I never Said I actually have ADHD Or depression. I think I have it. And I’m even pretty sure that I have ADHD. Many things gave me proof of that. But I’m not diagnosed with it, so I can’t say for sure if I have it. So I won’t say that either. Someone also crapped on me for claiming that I have these paranormal gifts. Like being a medium and stuff like that. I do have paranormal gifts. But I usually don’t speak about them openly. They brought that up from years ago and that pissed me off. Ever since I’ve been on that website my lack of social skills have been in the way. It ruined my whole reputation. Time after time after time they dare to bash me all over. That causes me to get into defense mode. That makes it worse. Not to mention I’m really impulsive. So yeah, when you feel attacked and strongly hurt you’re obviously even more impulsive. I’ve been thinking about leading that website, since it’s Toxic for me. So I might do that soon.
The last thing I bump upon is being vegan (JEEZ STUPID ASS PHONE STOP AUTOCORRECTING CORRECT STUFF. Sorry…). I am not vegan. But I do wanna become vegan. I am vegetarian though. However, I still live at home. And I, for the first time, told my parents that I’m considering becoming vegan. But they, obviously, HIGHLY disagree. It already was a big struggle to become vegetarian. Now I’m saying I might wanna become vegan and they just randomly get mad at me for a stupid diet. So I’m hurt by that too.
With all of that said. I just wanna say that I’m feeling miserable at the moment. I need people to help me become happy again. I’m done with all the crap in my life. I really am. I know it’ll all be worth it in the end. But at the moment it’s just all too much. So yeah I really used this to get rid of my feelings more then anything. I’m done. Completely done. Help meeehhh