A little about me: I self-diagnosed after college and subsequently found a psychiatrist who officially diagnosed me and started trying me out on some meds. Because of some things (I was self-/diagnosed as an adult, I had done well in school, I don’t really hyperfixate or get hyperactive in general), I’ve always had nagging self-doubts that I don’t actually have ADHD.
One thing I’ve always heard is that stimulant meds affect ADHD and non-ADHD people differently; for ADHD folks, it has a regulating/focusing effect, whereas someone without ADHD who takes a stimulant will get hyper and flighty and kind of similar to having (unmedicated) ADHD.
Today I took my first dose of Vyvanse/dexamphetamine 30mg this morning, and I got pretty bad side effects. My heartrate, normally around 60 or lower, was 80-100 for about 2 hours. I felt awake, sure (definitely no brain fog) but I was jittery, talking a mile-a-minute, and my hands were shaking for a bit.
Now my nagging self-doubt is saying I must not actually have ADHD, because it made me feel so activated rather than regulated. Does anyone with more experience with Vyvanse, stimulants, or living with an ADHD diagnosis in general have any perspective to offer? I suspect I’m being irrational, but it would be nice to hear an objective third-party assessment of the situation.