It’s a hard thing to remotely say, I mean without it I wouldn’t be me.
It’s not something like me being dyslexic that only effects remote regions of the brain. It effects the entirely brain, in multitudes of ways, so if I didn’t have ADHD I wouldn’t be me.
But do I like being me ?
Yes and No as with everything.
When life turns into a complete catastrophic disaster, due to my symptoms of course it’s quick to wish I never had it. But that’s only look at one side of things, and also without the experience of going through those phases of disaster how would I turn out? I don’t know.
As awful as it can be sometimes, there’s no telling the experience, sympathy, empathy I have gained from going through some bad experience that were mostly due to things you could attribute to ADHD.
And there’s also is an almost, I hate to say it, because I don’t like over glorifying these things as it’s a dangerous idea to spread, but as you said, how some people put it per se, super power like attributes to it.
In 5th grade, my grades were not up to par, nor was my attendance, or disciplinary. It was seen that I was a very intelligent kid who just didn’t apply himself, I feel many may relate. But I had this massive science project I had to do, worth a big percentage of my end of the year grade. My teacher mr.P was concerned and told me I wasn’t going to do good on it since, we had weeks to do it, and it was the day before, and as you could imagine, I had not started one bit of it.
The project happened to be on the health with the human body, and kinda of stuff like that.
Now 5th grade me wanted to become a DEA agent, I had a intrinsic interest in drugs, the war on drugs, traditional medicine, herbs, health care, and doctors. Needless to say 5th grade me, knew way more pharmacology than anyone would expect, I would read college books on it, I would read scholarly articles on google scholar (and possibly a site where you could get them for free).
Surprisingly I had about a college reading level in 5th grade, I recall this being a big thing, because my grades were ya know, not great, how I actually tested that high is beyond me, because some days even now, in high-school, I can’t read, and other days I can’t stop reading, I’m not even sure how that works.
But mr.P telling me I was going to fail, combined with my opposition defiant disorder, and emotional regulation, pissed 5th grade me off a bit, as in like a “yeah i’ll show you”.
5th grade me, unmedicated and undiagnosed btw. Ended up consuming borderline lethal amounts of energy drinks, and came in the next day with 5 poster boards, demonstrating and with sources (scholarly too and FDA), the effects of nicotine (mostly in smoking) because it’s a common drug people don’t always view as a drug, caffeine for the same reason prior, alcohol same stuff prior, The effects of more illicit drugs on one poster board, Cocaine, Crystal Methamphetamine, and Heroin. The effects of different balanced diets on the body as well as exercise, with a small portion on benefits of meditation on the last poster.
My mother almost died when she saw all this in the morning, she wasn’t sure if she was proud or annoyed I didn’t sleep.
Mr.P gave me the 1st over 100% in that class he has ever given, only person to ever gotten extra credit in the class which wasn’t supposed to be possible, bet I still have the highest grade for that tho, weird flex, I know.
And then I got all those like “wow you’re actually smart.” comments after
But the thing being the same condition, and symptoms that caused me to almost get a 0 on a massive project, and almost not be able to even attempt it, due to time management not existing for me.
Was also the same condition that caused me to get so pissed off over something most people would have forgotten in minutes, to the point that I ended up forcing myself awake, and getting the highest grade ever for that project.
So there’s 2 sides to every coin, and it’s hard to say how one would be without the other, so I think I kinda like ADHD, at least maybe overall.