I’ve never had a lot of friends. In my adult life it has always been a handful of friends who all know eachother and then people drop off or get different lifestyles etc. The friends I know who don’t know any of my other friends usually drop off the face of the earth eventually. And I always only hang out with ONE person constantly, becoming like an extra limb on them eventually, but that relationship also ends abruptly (the recently three ones I had a relationship like that with during these recent years did: 1. leave the country. 2. stabbed me in my back so bad I had to cut her out of my life asap and forever. 3. Ghosted me and stopped contacting me for a reason unknown to me)
I get into periods where I feel super-lonely and want to meet more people (in real life! having online friends are easy imo, but not to have irl ones ) and I’m in a period like that now… Or, I think I’ve been in one for a year or so, but I really have NO IDEA how to meet new people. I have very limited hobbies and I don’t have any interests. I meet people through other people on parties, basically. If those people have thrown a party. When I used to go out irl, it was always to get drunk in a bar. I don’t know how else to meet people and I haven’t been out on bars like that in years since I stopped using alcohol as a way to escape my problems.
I find it SO HARD to find hobbies to engage in! I have a really shitty income (sickleave), so I can’t afford stuff to do and if I could, I wouldn’t even know what that would be that could include other people I don’t already know. I saw a quote yesterday that fits me perfectly:
“I only like to meet people I already know” Of course, that is not helping me anymore!
Any tips for a socially awkward person like me?
(ps. my best friends are a group of friends who all lives in different countries, so we can’t just meet up and hang out casually! I will meet some of them when I go on vacation at the end of august though, so that will be awesome! I’ve been friends with them for 12 years or more, but of course can’t meet them much due to not being able to travel much!)