Hello! I’m Samantha. I’m 22 years old from Quebec (being specific here in case anyone has any specific info. I can’t find much about ADHD in the workplace).
Backstory: I dropped out of high school (secondaire) at 15 (technically not legal but it was a special situation: I rarely went to school because I kept having burnouts because it demanded too much from me and nobody thought to help). I ended up seeing a social worker because of that a few months later and was referred by her to a family doctor since I didn’t have any who then referred me to a psychologist. I ended up being diagnosed in 2012 because I’d seen some character on tv with ADHD and went ‘hey I do that’, and ‘that makes total sense now’ and went to my doctor and psychologist who quickly diagnosed me saying I had it pretty extreme. And it sort of explained a whole lot. So I’ve been doing school from home ever since because I’m more in control of my schedule and it allows me to not run around when I’m not focused because I found if I try too hard it can end up truly doing me harm. (I have my meds, but I’m not a big fan of them. I do take them when I need them, but I try to be gentle with it and not increase other medical problems I have.)
Six years later and I’m being told I might be autistic too so that’s a plus, I guess.
Anyhow, I like history and I like books and I thought to myself hey I should get a job so I can buy me some more books (people laugh when I tell them I’m bad with money since I’m a Capricorn and Capricorns are supposedly very good with money). I was extremely nervous about getting a job and talked long and hard about it to my psychologist and with the pressure from my parents, I decided to go for it, but may have lied to them about how many places I ended up applying to. I also only applied to places I consider ‘safe’ (places I’m very familiar with already) and ended up getting a job at David’s Tea (if you’re not familiar, it’s a tea store where they sell loose tea, make tea to go, along with other tea related products). I was already a customer before I applied and I figured it would be an easy first job, but it ended up going very wrong. They didn’t have time to teach us how to work behind the counter where the registers are and is the area where they also make the tea and sell the ton of tea they have. They only prep’ed us for more ‘retail’ work selling the products and that was it. I ended up on sample duty which required me having to talk to people and go to them asking if they wanted to sample some tea. The employees and my boss weren’t much happy about my work there since I would rather die than go towards people and talking to them first. I ended up having a panic attack there. Fun times. They also ended up putting me behind the counter and gave me no indication as to what I was supposed to do: I didn’t know how the scale and register worked; they never taught me. I sought for help but they didn’t help me much. I ended up telling my boss I have ADHD but she didn’t seem to understand what it was and how important it was for me that she understood I needed help. It was a seasonal job and I ended up not staying after my contract ended. It was a pretty sad experience. I understand they were busy, but I just felt lost.
I kind of lost hope afterwards until I had an awful awful day where my impulsivity was off the charts and I ended up applying to a couple of stores last week. I got an interview this Sunday for Lush and I have high hopes for it, except the nerves of the first time around are kind of coming back.
I have the worst memory. For example, I know every tea the store sells and their ingredients including all their products, but once I got the job, I blanked out so hard for all my shifts. I tried keeping post it notes on me for working the register and scale, but I’d forget or lose the notes. The same thing goes for Lush, I’m a costumer already, I know all the products, I’ve tried a lot of them, but I’m afraid I’m going to not perform as well as I do when I shop in stores. I’d feel more comfortable asking for help from other employees at Lush since I’ve seen a lot of them do it in stores while I’m there and they seem a bit more loose on that matter. They also seem to look often at the list of ingredients on the products while they talk about said product. Thinking about that kind of eases the nerves, but still. I think I’d actually like to keep this job if it goes well, but I’m still worried about the load that comes with it. I barely had any shifts at David’s Tea and there was much more to do than at Lush. Maybe it’ll be a better experience.
I guess I was wondering if anyone had any tips on which kind of jobs I should apply for or what kind of help I should seek from my boss.
Thank you, and have a good day/night!