I have recently been diagnosed with ADHD (inattentive-type) with a side of anxiety.
Even though I could always tell that something was different about me (still believing that I was specially made by God), I’ve lived most of my life under a black cloud without quite being able to put my finger on what was “off”. I did well in elementary school, but things started to fall apart around junior high, while others, as well as myself, believed it was mostly due to my parents’ divorce. From there, I was pretty much left to my own devices, dropping out of high school my junior year and winging it from there.
By the grace of God I was delivered from IV meth & cocaine addiction on 11/20/1988 and have been clean ever since (last Tuesday was 30 year anniversary!). Fast forwarding through several details and several years later to the beginning of 2017, I started suspecting ADHD (researching online).
After a life-long bout with chronic procrastination, disorganization, perfectionism, impatience, ultra-negativity, rabbit-chasing, forgetfulness, indecisiveness, nonproductive hyper-focus, and good intentions with multiple incompletions (just to name a few), it wasn’t until the intense emotional aspect of it - brought on by a long, hellish season of family relational crises - that I finally realized & sought out an official diagnosis. Although my ADHD nearly tore my marriage apart, I am fortunate enough to say that my wife of 18 years is still by my side, patient and gracious enough to support me, while my daughter and I continually make her head spin with what we see as “normal” - at least, the only normal we understand (actually…what is normal?).
Currently, I am not taking medication, but I am looking into possibly restarting meds soon. This is one of my biggest quandaries, and I hope to have an opportunity to address this in this forum very soon. There are a few other issues, but this is one of my biggest (biggest next step).
I am very grateful for the How to ADHD family (creators, admin, & fellow forum participants) and I hope to connect & share, as we walk this adventurous journey together.