Hi guys! I’m a 29 year old woman living in the northern suburbs of the Minneapolis area with my kitty and fiance! This may get a little heavy here, just warning, but I really want to just get all this off my chest and feel better for a bit.
First off, let me say that I’m not exactly “new” to this whole ADHD thing. I’ve been diagnosed informally once about 10 years ago, and formally (with that annoying computer test) about two years ago with moderate ADHD-Combined. I’ve been on and off meds and in and out of counselors offices for a long time, and constantly searching for why I felt so inadequate, so self defeating, so ashamed of being me and comparing myself to others. For years and years, since I was in middle school, I never trusted myself to do anything right. I hated being around people, hated my career, hated being in my own head sometimes, where the negative thoughts swirled and tried to make b\me believe that they were true.
Then, in the grips of stress-induced anxiety about my relationship with my then-boyfriend, I watched a video called “ADHD and Relationships: Let’s Be Honest”. I immediately broke down and realized that she understood. And there was a whole community out there that did as well. Reading the comments on all Jessica’s videos made me realize that there were a whole bunch of people like me that were going through the same struggles that I was. But still, I held back from actually saying anything, contenting myself to lurk and read comments and watch YouTube videos but not actually do any of the things that could help with my ADHD.
Now, I’m not going to anymore.
So, hi everyone! I hope to glean some knowledge, laughter, self-confidence, and maybe some new friends or gaming buddies from this community. I want to focus on myself and making myself better in a way that I haven’t been doing for what feels like my whole life, and I want my soon-to-be-husband to see the happy, awesome person that I know I can be.