I’m an almost 19-year-old girl and I live in Sweden. I have had a tricky background but I’ll put it in shortly for you guys. At three months old I got five broken ribs and my wrist too so I was put in a foster family, I freakin’ loved them and still do. There I stayed until I was six years old then the social workers thought I should go back home to my biological mother. (who has ADHD and is bipolar)
I hated it but I stayed there for six years until I was twelve when I was allowed to decide for myself where I would live. So I moved back to my foster family, got diagnosed with ADHD at the age of seventeen. When I was a kid I had a lot of sleeping issues and huge anxiety problems at night but never had I ever found it so hard to find friends until now. Before, I was just like a magnet for people to talk, chitchat or gossip. But now I just pull away more and more and I think I need help with getting back on track again.
My biggest problem is probably cutting people off in the middle of our conversations without even realizing it, my extreme impulsivity, not being able to listen when someone’s standing right in front of me and talking loud and clear and still not really understanding the sound of their voice.
I love reading. English books ike hunger games. Took me two days to read all three books without a problem but then my teacher gives me another book. Also in English but when I open it and try to read it’s like I can’t freakin’ remember what the letters mean and when I do, I have to read the whole sentence for about seven times before I can understand it. My medication is really helping me in these situations but I do forget to take it some days and some days I don’t really feel like I need it.
Now. How do I make other people like my boyfriend, his family or my friends to understand my hyperfocus and my “none-focus”? That sometimes talking to strangers is no problem and I can ask anyone for help but sometimes it just can’t be done by me.
Many people also tell me that Adhd is bullshit and that makes me so sad.
I’ve lost so much weight but I don’t blame the medicine since I feel hungry all the time and can eat small portions all day, the only problem is that I don’t have money for eating eight times a day. Since August I’ve lost about 10kg and I feel myself becoming skin and bone.
Does anyone wanna share their theories, experiences or ideas, welcome to do so.
Take care, Brains <3