Hi everyone! I’m 32 and I’m from Ireland. I literally just got back from my Doctor. I shared my ADHD concerns, and hopefully will have a referral to a specialist shortly.
A good college friend of mine found out over the holidays that they had been diagnosed with ADHD when they were young. It seems the family didn’t act on it and the diagnosis was forgotten about.
When I heard this story and looked into ADHD myself, and the penny dropped. My whole life I’ve been pushing at an invisible wall, trying to swim with stone boots. In school I was frustrated with homework, in college I had tremendous trouble with deadlines, I almost lost my last job (Which I quit) and my current job (Which I love) is now in jeopardy. There are too many specific elements of my life to mention. ADHD would explain why I would pull over on the way home from work in tears, racking my brains to why I couldn’t improve, succeed or excel. Anyone who know’s me well enough will tell you I’m unbelievably talented, but these compliments have always seemed empty and meaningless to me. Like what’s the point of talent if I am unable to use it?
I’m a mixed bag at the moment of sadness, anger, and unusual focus to try and get help. However, my main reaction has been excitement at this possible diagnosis. I cannot even yet imagine what it is like to be able to focus and work purposefully towards completing my goals. To plan my life, to make my mad notions into reality. It feels liberating to know there might be a possibility that I’m not lazy or have a bad work ethic.
As I don’t yet have a formal diagnosis I’m very aware of not jumping the gun, but so far it explains my whole life. I have a wonderful partner and incredible one and half year old son and I can’t let myself be hindered any longer.
Looking forward to chatting and getting to know everyone.