I’m hurt. I am close with my mom. I feel like I can depend on her for anything. Until this. About 6 months I stumbled on information about ADHD and it was like a light bulb went off! I was floored! I’m 40 years old, and my whole life I have felt like I could never be like everyone else. I was a train wreck. A smart, sweet, lovable trainwreck. Finally understanding that I wasn’t lazy, wasn’t ditsy, I wasn’t not trying hard enough… my brain just worked different. I cried with relief. I watched and read everything I could find. I got a referral from my family Dr to a psychiatrist and yesterday… I was officially diagnosed and prescribed my first medication.
About two months ago I brought up the subject with my family. They, mostly my mom and oldest sister, dismissed it. Like… they dont believe it’s real? Or they dont believe I could have it? Or that if I have it, I’m “fine” and should just live my life. I quickly changed the subject and haven’t discussed it again.
I couldnt do it over the phone. I didnt want to hear it in my Mom’s voice… so I sent out a message on messenger (a very common means of communication in my family) and even added a very good YouTube video talking about adhd and adult women.
On messenger you can see that she, and two of my sisters, had read it. Only my one sister, who’s son has adhd, responded at all. She was very happy for me.
It’s been over an hour… and my mom hasn’t said anything. I am hurt.