I’m 28 and super lost at the moment. I experience very conflicting symptoms when it comes to ADHD. And I am still not sure if I have it.
Here are some things that I’m constantly fighting with:
I have ideas flooding my brain constantly, new ideas are like a drug to me. Doesn’t matter if it’s business ideas, blog post ideas, or whatever. Then I fall in love with these ideas but lose interest after a while. This vicious cycle often repeats.
Stimuli of any kind really. I’m easily bored. When I worked for two companies my brain always kept telling me that I can do more than a 9 to 5 and that I should pursue my ideas. And anyway working in such a setting really sucked the life out of me. Handling stress was also super problematic.
I suffer from incredible feelings of frustration and overwhelm. Sometimes minor stuff completely paralyzed me in the past. Pushing through never worked and only made it worse. Feelings of depression already occurred here and there.
I’m super nervous and constantly fighting and chewing on my fingernails. There’s a constant feeling of restlessness. My brains always doing a race. Sometimes this leads to difficulties falling asleep.
I’m always doing too many things at once. Focusing on one thing and prioritizing is super hard for me.
On the other side, I can be super productive and hyper-focused for hours, if something is personally interesting to me. I don’t really have problems getting shit done, at least not in university. My Master’s thesis was handed in 2 months before the deadline, long before any of my friends finished theirs. I don’t know but I feel the structured environment of the university, only having one clear goal and my deep interest in the topic made that possible.
Isn’t that unusual for someone who might have ADHD? This feeling is tearing me apart. On the one hand, I’m known for being structured & ambitious, and other the other hand I can be in complete chaos, jumping all over the place, feeling completely overwhelmed/frustrated etc.
To be honest, I am just super confused and don’t know what to think.
Any advice would be appreciated.