I’ve been following along with ADD/ADHD information for a while know, subconsciously recognizing that I’ve struggled with it, but also not consciously accepting that this could be my reality.
I am 22 and not yet pursuing diagnosis, though intend to start within a year.
Why not yet?
In case you wonder why, I have a few other medical concerns I need to prioritize first, and I am coping much better with awareness and supplementation in the meantime.
I have quite a few things in my deck stacked against any sort of clarity. My mom used to consistently tell me the story of how she “cured my autism” with diet and supplements. Then when I started middle school and started struggling with focus, I got yelled at and grounded for having D grades every quarter until I finally graduated high school. It stunk being told from every angle that I had potential, yet I couldn’t figure out why I “didn’t care enough” to do homework. I pretty much left my hometown dysfunctional and distressed
Then I got a job (which I still work at) working in the supplements department at a grocery store. There were typically only 3 people in the department, so I was able to get pretty personal with my coworkers and managers. My first manager there was a self diagnosed Aspie. My second and current manager is diagnosed ADD. They are both absolute powerhouses. I practice acknowledging that my growth is my own doing, but they also have helped me an amazing amount in becoming who I am now. I doubt I would have made nearly as much progress without getting to know them.
I don’t have a support system at home nor the resources necessary to move away, and I’m still learning to cope with that. My mom and I are getting along better than ever, but we are still a very dysfunctional family. I know that I have been codependent, however I am far enough along to stop acting upon old habits, but not enough along to speak out against it. I know my brother is neurodivergent too, but for reasons I don’t understand yet, we can’t emotionally connect on anything.
I have been amazed with how much ADD/ADHD resources have helped me (namely how to ADHD and ADDitude) and I have a cleaner room, productive hobbies, and better relationships because of them! I look forward to reading more!
What’s been helping me the most are the 25 minute timers to get stuff done, the dopamenu, and cleaning with “desired clutter”