Let me first say that, I think that it’s awesome that this forum exists. Having a place where people can relate to the problems I’m having is very helpful. I am known around other social medias as Valiant, or just “Val” if you prefer. Most do. That’s right! You guessed it, I have ADHD and probably have for my whole life. I was diagnosed in grade school, but it was so long ago I don’t remember much about the doctor who diagnosed me, or what criteria he used to make his decision. I do remember being on Ritalin for a while. I had problems in school but some how made it through to high school and found a passion in American Football. I had to keep a C average to play on the team so I decided to focus and get my grades in order. After high school I joined the Air Force after working a retail sales job for about a year. There was never much question about what to do after that, because I was always told where to go and what actions to take. It wasn’t until I after I was honorably discharged from the USAF that I began to notice my ADHD again. I used my GI Bill at a private university to obtain a bachelors degree in the science of nursing (RN). It was during this time that I learned I was going to be a father. My girlfriend at the time (whole other long story so I’ll spare you) was pregnant with my son Oliver. Problems between her and me developed and we broke up before my son was born. I wanted to be a part of my son’s life, but his mother had stopped communicating with me. It got to the point where I had to hire a lawyer and start a custody battle. This all went down during my schooling, and took its toll on not only my finances, but my mental health. My mental health was the worst of it. I am only now realizing just how much it shook me. I was dismissed from the program for not being able to keep up with my studies. Even before the break up, I was struggling trying to keep my focus where it needed to be. I would try so hard to listen to the professor, but I retained none of the information. Not even a little. I would literally force myself to stare at the professor and try my hardest to not lose focus, but you can imagine this didn’t go well. During my time in the military, there were times when I would miss appointments or be late to formations because I couldn’t organize my time. After leaving school I sat for a while not doing much but playing video games. This wen’t on for a few months until I found a job in retail sales again. I worked for about 8 months but was terminated for walking out. My inability to manage my time, and prioritize made me late all the time. I eventually looked at myself in the mirror and said, “I’m not happy at work. I am not going to make myself miserable anymore.” I didn’t work another shift after that. I was exhausted. The every day struggle to try and keep myself together enough to work a dead-end job,wore down on me. So here I am now, 7 months unemployed living with family because I can’t afford to live on my own. My only source of income comes from VA Disability Compensation. It’s the only reason I’m not homeless. I am not in a great spot. I have tried looking for work but I never act on anything for fear the I will give up on myself again. I am also worried about any manual labor jobs because I am already feeling the after effect of my military service on my joints and back. I know I need to get moving, but I’m lost. I find it hard to put value in things. Even when I know they are so important. My only ray of hope is my son. I love him more than anything. I spend time with him every week and I know he loves me too. It makes me sad that I cannot provide for him like I should. I don’t want to be this way so here I am. trying to find a solution. I know this was a long story and I apologize. It was the best way I could introduce myself and my situation. Somethings about me, I love video games, my son, traveling, mental health was my favorite subject in RN school but I love whole field and the sciences behind it. I served in Afghanistan, and spent about 2 years collectively in Turkey. I have a son who is 3 years old and is my little double. I have interests in the IT and healthcare settings. Hope to get to know you all. Thanks for your time.