Thanks for your text.
Yes, I am worried about potential negative side effects. When I got my migraine medication I had mood swings, nausea, dizziness and few other things (can’t recall at the moment, it was like two years ago (or more)).
I guess my parents have no problem with taking them in generall (or I don’t care if they do), I am more afraid of their reactions to the side effects. The thing is, that my parents have the opinion that I am not ill, they think I would just acting to get pity from other people. If that would be true I should have become an actor. But at least I know that I am not acting because then I wouldn’t experiencing the stuff when I am alone and I tend to isolate myself so I don’t annoy other people with my problems.
I am not sure what you mean with ‘impact on […] education’.
When I realised (people told me) that I have these side effects, I went imediatly to my psychiatrist and we stopped the medication.
I know that it would be good and healthy to stop sometimes but I am financly dependent from my parents, I would love not to, but I tried to work in the last holidays and in that time I felt really good and had nothing other to do and I couldn’t work more than 40 hours in a month and I can’t finance me completely with that. To finance me comletely from my own work I have to work 100 hours per month but at the moment I am not capable of doing that. I was in a clinic 2017 (for 3 months therapy) and when I came back my psychiatrist read the report the clinic sended to her and told me, that there is the possibility that I am not able to work enough to completely finance myself after I finish my study (that really freaked me out), but I don’t know what I can do to increase my ressources so I can work more.
At the moment I am still suffering from the negativ follow from the autistic-burnout last year, I really have difficulties to come over with and I really don’t know how to deal with the whole situation.
I have a lot of strategies, habits and routines (I have a lot of therapy experience), maybe they are not the right strategys because they ‘fit’ for the diagnosis I have, but if they are misdiagnosed, it is not a surprise the strategies don’t help me.
The problem is, that I need a therapist to learn to deal with ADHD/autism, because my psychiatrist can’t see me that often (at the moment I see her once in three month for like 20 minutes), and my psychiatrist is retiring at the end of the year. I tried to get new therapy last year, but because I had allready so much therapy before there are no therapist who wants to have me as a patient and in my city there are no therapists for autism (I don’t know who the situation is with ADHD).
I use forest, too. Mostly at work so I really work and don’t check my messages every five seconds.
I have compensations for diabilities at my university and the appointee for students with disabilities is really nice but they don’t know what are the possibilities (and I don’t know either) so every time I have a new idea what could be helpfull I go to the appointee, explain the idea to him, if we both think it is a good idea, I go and talk with the teachers (and hope they are ok with it) and then I hope that my parents get no knowledge of it and won’t get angry at me. It is really exhausting because I have no really help from experienced people, because there are no people in my city (like therapists and staff like that) who would help me. I don’t know what to do and at the moment I am just gratefull that the university is ok with me not really studying and will not kick me out.
Thank you so much for being there and giving tips.
I will try to speak with my psychiatrist today, because I need at least my on-demand medication.