( this is a very long post, and i split it into sections that can be hidden so it isn’t an absolute word wall. There’s also a TL:DR at the end )
UPDATE: there was a major schedule change and I got an appointment 2 weeks ahead of time. I had an hour long Autism assessment yesterday and I’ll have an 5 hour long ADHD and LD assessment tomorrow.
I did have a chance to talk with my mom beforehand, she’s promised to tell me everything from the meeting I didn’t attend as well as the results which is a huge relief. Turns out that talking to people actually fixed problems??
The first appointment went ok I guess. We did a couple tests ( boring and illogical ) and some personal assessment ( allowed no room for nuance or explanations ).
specific tests and opinions
The tests we did: ( currently out-of-order )
Draw this picture while I switch out what pencil you’re using and later draw it from memory. ( it was a semi-complicated drawing with lots of shapes
put metal pieces in a pegboard with your right hand and then your left ( for some reason, this hurt my wrist )
tell me what whether this is an up arrow, or a down arrow. Now do it the opposite ( wrong ) way. Now, say it correctly if the arrow is black, and incorrectly if the arrow is white. Do the whole thing again but with circles and squares. ( I hated this one, it was all wrong and nonsensical )
if the computer says red, tap the red circle. Don’t tap the yellow one if it says yellow, or the blue one if it says blue. The computer will say a lot of words ( I spaced out on this one and definitely missed a couple towards the end )
draw a line putting the numbered circles in order. Now do the same but matching letters before the number: A to 1, then B to 2 etc. ( I have a hard time with letters and was fingerspelling them in ASL. This made her scribble away furiously when I started which I thought was funny )
match these 8 cards into 2 groups. Keep going until you run out of categories ( I LOVED this one, categorizing is my absolute favorite!! However, the doctor contradicted herself and interrupted me which was annoying )
there were also 2 general self-assessment sheets ( apparently, you have to answer exactly within the options even if it’s ridiculously inaccurate. I had to re-do a couple which I just answered true on regardless of the question )
It wasn’t fun, but it was terrible either. Mostly just draining
I didn’t like the doctor though. She seemed to be gradually getting more annoyed with me and potentially sloppy ( I would do something that wasn’t allowed and she consistently missed it all the first times around ) however I believe this might have been part of the test as I’ve read it’s a common tactic in autism assessments
explaining about the doctor
( this happened at the end of a long day so she might have been tired )
For example: when I was drawing, I erased some of the picture. This made a squeaking sound, and I flinched at the noise audibly saying ouch. No reaction. A few minutes later, I erased at the picture again, this time making sure to stay silent. She then took the pencil and told me no erasing, despite having given me erasable color pencils ( The pencil package was for normal pencils ) and no instructions other then to draw the picture next to me.
She’s also contradicted herself. I was supposed to sort cards until I ran out of categories. Before I could finish, she grabbed the cards and hurriedly put them away. (she knew I wasn’t done because I was supposed to tell her and because I was still going )
When I was doing the personal assessments and asked a clarifying question, she would tell me to just answer the question in an annoyed voice.
When giving me instructions, she would alternate between a cheerful tone, and one that indicated I was causing trouble ( I only followed what she said and barely talked… )
She also explained nothing about what was happening, or why. I was prepared thanks to hours of research, but even then it was disorienting
I’m really hoping tomorrow will be better as I’ll be with a different doctor in the morning then spend the afternoon with the first doctor.
Afterwards, my mom said something that really stuck with me. ( similar to what @Cubmaster_Heather said )
She said I probably won’t like anyone I do the testing with, but that’s ok because it’s just data collection.
i was getting really frustrated at that point and it helped me to calm down significantly. It’s just science, and she’s just doing her job. Even if it seems stupid or pointless, it’s all important information
TL:DR/ my mom is awesome, I’m not a fan of testing but I don’t really care, and I don’t think I like the doctor but I’m hoping the doctor I’m seeing tomorrow will be better