Hello! I’m pretty sure the rest of my social media must be tired of me talking about it so I went HEY maybe go find that ADHD forum you’ve been meaning to post in!
I’d been wondering about ADHD for a couple years after a couple friends of mine were diagnosed and started sharing their stories. Specifically other adult women. I was vaguely aware women can also have ADHD, but I very much grew up hearing “that’s just hyper little boys.” I was diagnosed depression/anxiety back when I was 16, but I always felt like there was something more going on since even when I’m mostly doing fine I still struggle with executive function and focus stuff.
Eventually someone posted one of the HowToADHD vids in a thread and somewhere through watching I suddenly remembered something. My dad was diagnosed ADD (I know they don’t use that term anymore) when he was a year older than I am now. He’d actually told me that years ago, I just never once thought to ask questions or consider that might really be a thing to look into.
Got back in touch with him and after we talked about it he recommended I talk to a professional since a lot of things were lining up.
I’m sure it’s a little weird due to covid. My understanding was you usually need to take an in person test, but every place in my area has gone back to telehealth appointments at the moment. I actually wrote out a whole list of things to tell the doctor - at my dad’s recommendation, so I wouldn’t forget something in the moment. And go fig, I didn’t even get through all of it before she started asking questions.
I answered them more honestly than I have in my entire life (I don’t LIKE admitting how often I’ve been late to work or frustrated loved ones by forgetting things) and she was all YUP SURE SOUNDS LIKE ADHD. though not in those words, heh.
We’re starting me on nonstimulants, which is fine with me. I know they take longer and can be less effective but I guess my dad had some issues when they put him on stimulants. I’m a little nervous to take them bc I’ve had some bad side effects from depression/anxiety meds before, but I’m trying to remember this is why we start at a low dose.
Mostly I just…it’s such a relief. It’s the difference between spending my entire life fighting my brain and being angry at myself bc it doesn’t do what I want it to do, and recognizing “Nope! Just how your brain works and you just need to learn how to work with it instead of against it.”
I mean, I have a lot of work ahead of me even if the meds do help. I know that. I need to get some better systems in place. But I can start to be kinder to myself about the things I struggle with. And that is…a LOT. In a good way.