So I just had sinus surgery, and I was more scared of the post surgery than the surgery itself…
My psychologist tells me I am a highly sensitive person. Which I feel Jess may have mentioned in the past? About her self?
Anyway I’m at the end of two weeks (unpaid) recovery, and it’s been an experience.
Ever since the surgery my hair follicles and teeth have been sore…. Though the surgeon never touched either. And of course my sinuses hurt! Like I’d been punched in the nose.
He pulled the stitches out of my nasal cavity today and my head is still ringing with pain like a bell. Even with the good drugs.
And the anxiety I’m sure pumps it up… I’m so scared to clean out my nose and pull on something I shouldn’t, every new day and new experience I was terrified…. I preferred to be asleep, it was the only time I was ok.
I don’t ever remember having an experience like this, feeling sorry for myself AND the pain not going away….
The surgeon was nice he said “it’s just the way you’re wired…”
I feel for the first time like the damsel in distress, with a sprained ankle unable to save myself….
Of course having to feed myself, wash out my sinuses 3 times a day , take my meds, was all completely overwhelming for my adhd, I completely failed on most fronts there! I’m glad I had the time off, I can’t believe some people
Next week I return to the real world… with covid deaths climbing… I really want to just hide away. just work away through it!