As a child I was a ‘dreamer’, often called ‘gifted but disruptive’ in school.
I wasn’t the rowdy hyper running around everywhere type so I don’t think anyone really associated it with anything like ADHD at the time I was just considered chatty and distracted and bright and disorganized and messy.
I did fidget and doodle and make little paper cranes in class when the lesson was oh so boring because I already knew that stuff could we please get to the interesting bits now?
It all made more sense after I had kids, my kids are very much like me and when their doctor suggested ADHD and talked about it with me it all made sense. My mother is a lot like me too and several other family members, so it all clicked into place.
I’ve described the feeling in my head some days as if I were standing in a crowded bustling noisy place, like a busy subway station, there are trains coming and going and people talking everywhere and maybe some musicians playing and I’m trying to pick out a very quiet announcement over a muffled radio while someone is asking me for directions in another language that I only kind of understand - I sort of assumed that processing the world was like that for everyone and I was just especially bad at it. Apparently no, my brain going in ten different directions at once is a me thing.
I have found a few things that help, although they are by no means cures they are tools that I use to wrangle this wandering brain of mine. I find juggling to be a fantastic form of meditation because it keeps just enough of my body and mind occupied to let the other parts take a break for a while. Martial arts can sometimes work that way too- kata can be a form of meditation and in sparring if your mind starts to drift you get punched so you generally have to stay in the moment. The structure and routine of it helps too, I’ve seen it help out a lot of kids as well. Standing still and listening to the instructor and not drifting off can be tricky for me even now though.
I also love art, I can hyperfocus while being creative and lose hours of time, which is a good or bad thing depending on whatever else I need to do with my day.
I have been lurking on this community for a while and reading posts so I thought it was time to introduce myself properly.