Hello folks! Let’s explain myself
So, last year I went to a therapist with the question: do I have ADHD or autism? Well, she said I don’t have autism. But she never said anything about ADHD. While having therapy I suddenly found myself into a very hectic (but short due to my own positivity) mental breakdown. After a few months I kinda recovered from the worst (gives herself a million compliments). I’m still not a 100% recovered, but I’m able to function ‘normally’ again. I sometimes just have a little fallback for like one day.
Last time at therapy, my therapist suddenly changed. We were seeking things through that I still want help with. Since I obviously follow Jessica on YouTube and researched all about ADHD (and hyper focused on it at 3 am. You know the drill), I know A LOT about it. And ever since I’ve been young I knew something about me was off from other people but I never knew what it was. From high school I suddenly realized it might be ADHD. And now I researched a lot I’m pretty confident I have it. That’s why I went to therapy. Well last week at therapy, we were going trough things that I have difficulty with. Suddenly she said: do you have trouble focusing? I obviously said yes, and how I’m also able to hyper focus. Then she asked if I’m impulsive. I said yes again. Then she asked if I had trouble sitting still. Again, I said yes. She never mentioned ever the word ADHD. But my mind was going a trillion miles a minute from what she just asked. Did she really just basically ask if I have ADHD? I was anxious to know if that was on her mind. I still am. She also said things that she took in consideration with the other therapists she works with in a meeting. These included mindfulness and even medication. Especially the medication kinda scared me. Now my mind started racing a hundred trillion miles a minute. Maybe the final word is finally coming out. I have hope. I really do. Maybe something comes out of this that I knew all along. Yayyy! Tomorrow I have therapy again, so then I will most likely get to know whether or not she had it on her mind. But I obviously can’t get too excited, because it easily could also just be something else. But it’s so difficult to not get excited!
It would be so good, not only for me, but also for my parents when that word of me having ADHD comes out. Then I would immediately tell my therapist to make sure to educate my parents. I can do that, but a therapist doing that most likely has more effect on them. Because exactly the things I struggle with are ADHD symptoms and my mother doesn’t understand why I struggle with them. So this would be sooooo good. I just hope for the best. My mother helps me a lot with these things though, but sometimes it’s difficult to do so when you don’t understand it. And I get that. So I don’t blame her. Same thing goes for my father. But it’s most definitely frustrating sometimes.
Soooo stay tuned for tomorrow y’all. I’ll give all of you an update. And do y’all have any tips for when it comes out I don’t have ADHD, even though my symptoms perfectly line up with it?
I love y’all. So let’s break loose down here