Don’t worry about it, in some way your reaction now kinda got me back into here where I kinda get some automatic reminder of things. That can come in handy.
Anyway, it’s good that you’re reaction is now, probably on a weird level. But hear me out.
I may or may not be unsure if I already told you this, but I dropped one class for this semester. If I put that on a stress scale from l
0-100, I guess it takes 15% off of the 100%.
It’s… been an eventful start of the calendar year. I went from overwhelmed to sad when a family member passed away (not completely over it yet, would be weird if I was) and somewhere in between these two there was happiness for a very short while after I passed al classes from first term.
Well I guess I got off on the wrong foot, the burial ceremony was on the 1st day of the second term, hated it for all the obvious reasons, but well… some things were bigger than school. Then I tried - and completely failed - to try everything everyone else did too, which was 4 classes. But I found out reaaally soon after I got back into it full focused (for what it’s even worth). Basically all classes are, and I phrase this in the way a friend from my class said it, who also has ADHD, ‘we basically get fysical education in an online environment.’ Covid still rules over our country here, university and one level below that are still not able to go to school. Fun thing is though, they judge us inside a scheme that’s fit for students who have had fully fysical education.
I don’t like to sound like a pessimist or whatever, or like I’m this holy person who has done it all right here. But school has given us nothing to work with, they completely lost sight of us, firstyears, who experience 1) the study as a whole for the first time, and 2) get some form of education of which they tell us it’s a good substitution. Well, it’s really far from that. Last Wednesday I sent a teacher an email about something that was truly essential to get progress in this project. Till the point that I’m writing this… there has been no answer, the deadline I had to submit what my question was about? Last Friday.
Before I keep going I’m gonna stop myself here, I kinda feel like the point is clear . I really want to try the things you mentioned, and I did so around the end of last term… sort of. But now I just… everyday is the same struggle, basically every week, it’s (trying to) wake up, breakfast, be at the laptop for hours and hours without progress and get no time to even lunch or breaks during live groups. Then usually dinner, and evenings also bring more work. I’ve come to the point that sleep comes after study. Past 7 days there were 2 0 hours of sleep nights, and I think it’s more than fair to say that the majority of the 24 hours in a day goes to study above sleep.
Anyway, to end on a positive note, I have been part of this ADHD-group at school since I began, which is a great improvement for me here. As a group you can achieve a whole lot more in our organization.
And how are you in this term? You coping?