Iam Mathias, 42 years old, self-employed and have ADHD and dyslexia. Iw been on medicines since I was ten. I know a lot about the benefits and the struggles that comes with ADHD.
Days of struggle.
Its been a month of struggle, and today I must turn it around or I am afraid it all will blow up. To many tasks seek children bills building up Procrastination cabooom. Iam on the final step before caboom. Naturally there’s a life after the caboom as well, but I don wona get that far. Hopefully I can chare with you my steps back to where Iam in charge. The first step will be to take the control back, and you are a witness. Be reading this thread right now. This is not recorded. Its live and happening right now. Plz cheer on me, I need your support.
Ill break my days up in steps. The days are is in the post date, and the steps begins in the morning.
Todays step 1.
I got up, my two year old kept crying mommy, as he is a mommies boy (to much in fact). The sound of him sow sweet but still hammering my head. The other three kids ( I got four), woke up one by one. Everyone with their own habits. Iam struggling to focus as my mind is very cloudy. Medicines has not kicked in and there’s a lot of noise. My wonderful wife helps the kids. I join in but my temper raises with the noise and the struggle to cope with my last month of build ups. I focus on one kid at a time. I got 2 out of four sorted out at to eat breakfast. My mind grasping for a quiet room, some space, a fantasy that I can wonder away in an become a part of a dream. But life I brutal. I check my Email in an attempt to get a reality check an wake up. There some positive and a few very bad. It feels like a cold shower. Its tuff, but Iw had tuff before and I know it can be the start of everything good. The monster hunts me and reminds me that I cannot procrastinate my life any more. Its my life and I am taking it back.
…Its 0747 am. I got to walk my kid to school before confronting the email monsters…