Hi, I’m new to the forum. I have known I have had ADHD for a while, but only recently got diagnosed and understood the bigger picture. My therapist thinks I was misdiagnosed with depression and anxiety instead of ADHD and PTSD. So I’m still sorting through that.
I have a very taxing, but self managed job that requires a lot of self motivation. I can get through most of it because I am dedicated to and love the mission, plus it is challenging. But getting through the tough daily stuff is killing me. Especially getting back to people via email, calls or texts. And I have identified a very specific trap for myself…
I procestinate until I reach panic, but unlike some other people I have read about, the panic just shuts me down now, instead of motivating me. Do other people experience this with ADHD? Is it possible this shut down panic is more of a PTSD thing?
I think it is ADHD, because the work I panic about is complex and lots of times involves other people who can be mad at me (sometimes i have had nothing to do with it, it’s just part of the job, but sometimes it is cause i didn’t call them back!). I’ve been reading a lot about the hyperactivity of feelings and can relate, I want to shut down and take a nap just thinking of calling these people. I also can’t just push through some of these things, I need to do my research and have to call at specific times.
I am looking for anyone to relate to and any ideas to help specifically on how to get back to people who may be upset or angry or how to break either the procrastination part or work through the panic to get the hard parts done.
Thank you so much, this forum has been so helpful, i have started a bullet journal, which helped me identify what was causing the panic.