So I’m not sure what the official term is for this but lots of online resources refer to something called “Time Blindness”. For me, I’m specifically concerned about the perceived lengthening of time. I’m calling it “Time Dilation” for lack of a better word.
I’m having a lot of trouble at work lately because I’ve been placed on a very boring task that does not look like it has an end. Recently I’ve noticed that time seems to be moving slower. Today has been the worst where I checked the time twice, thinking 30 minutes had passed, and in reality, it had been 5 minutes.
This is starting to really drag me down. I’m borderline ASD in that I display symptoms similar to what an autistic individual would under stress but I don’t have some of the other negative features such as impaired social development and understanding. Anyway, I think I’ve been getting close to a meltdown over the overwhelming sense that time is not moving. Symptoms include vigorously pacing back and forth, verbal outbursts/compulsively repeated phrases, flurries of arm/hand gestures, and banging my head on objects. Basically the “rumble stage” or pre-meltdown buildup. I’ve not allowed myself to go full nuclear yet as I usually ask to go home early if I hit the point where I start bashing my head into things. I feel really stupid and embarrassed in retrospect about these outbursts but I literally cannot figure out any other way to vent the stress that I am feeling without detonating and putting a screwdriver through the wall.
I would talk to my supervisor but I work construction. They’re not likely to have much understanding or sympathy for how my mind is currently torturing me. I also hate asking to be treated differently because it draws unwanted attention.
Is there anything I can do to try to work through this or fix my mind’s perception? I’m assuming my ADHD meds aren’t working correctly if I’m having this much trouble.