Jinx

Jinx

21 year old Junior in college.
My daughter is a 4 year old tortoiseshell kitty, we’re mutually obsessed with eachother :revolving_hearts: :heart_eyes_cat:

Besides that, I’m both very artistic and very scientific which I think may be the benefit of having my brain (even if this brain mostly gets me into trouble)
My favorite science is Organic Chemistry. My favorite math is Algebra II, though I’ve been known to perform some magic with Calculus back in my day. My favorite artistic medium is Paint :relaxed:
My 2 main modes are dissociative napper and passionate trailblazer - basically I have a dark side and a bright side that haven’t figured out how to balance out yet :roll_eyes: I’m also way too empathetic, I care too much and it hurts.

I am so extremely lost lol unfortunately I am currently diagnosed with 5 conditions so life is way fun and school is going ~great~ for me;; -she said sarcastically-
I was just diagnosed with ADHD last year. At the time I felt a sense of both closure for finally getting an answer to part of what was “wrong” with my mind and resignation because of course let’s add another disorder to the list like I wasn’t dealing with enough already. I just have the best luck in the world.
Sorry if I seem bitter, I still haven’t quite come to terms with it all, and life is a struggle as I’m sure you will understand.

That is why I am here.
I finally found a communirty of people who may understand, at the very least, parts of what I’ve been struggling with all alone for so long. Even if I didn’t have a name for it, I knew there was something… off(?) about me. Other people didn’t know what was “wrong” with me, just that I was “too sensitive”, “spacey”, and overall “weird”. I didn’t understand how to interact and make friends as easily as everyone else. What secret did they know that I missed out on??? Tired of rejection, I gave up and grew up from a “quiet child” to an “antisocial teen” to now a… “complicated case” ?

I’m really just hoping to finally find some support and advice from people who UNDERSTAND, who have had similar experiences, who have brains that are different like mine.
I remember so often growing up everyone would ask me why I was so different. My family, peers, teachers, etc. I always hated when they would ask me because I WANTED TO KNOW TOO! It’s not like I chose to make life more difficult for myself. It was so frustrating dealing with that sense of not belonging and of not understanding just WHY? This is the body I was born in, that I grew up in. I aced anatomy, biology, phisiology, chemistry, social studies; how could I not know why I was the way I was!? Even now, I still don’t fully understand, but I’m sincerely hoping that with your help I’ll at least find ways to cope and to make life a bit better.

~So sorry for the novel!!! TLDR: I’m sorely messed up and lost, pls send help :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye: :kissing_cat: